Week 40

Freaking week 40! FOURTY.

There have been many tears shed this week. I've been doing really well up until this week, and then some really bad back pain decided to creep in. I have taken 2-3 baths a day before I went and got a heating pad at the store. What a difference that made! Sleeping has been pretty rough with the pain but finally last night after treating my back I was able to sleep 2-10am! (Ollie likes to go crazy from like 11-2 for some reason).

This week we had our 40 week apppintment. Remember when my doctor said I would deliver last weekend? Well, basically he said the exact same thing at this appointment, that most likely I would deliver, but he'd set me up with an induction just in case (but didn't think I'd need it). I was still dilated to a 3 and 90% effaced so no change from the last week. I got a 3rd membrane strip and he thought he broke my water but didn't. "Hey, can we try that again?" Haha. Well, here I am Saturday night with no baby, so I'm planning on being induced at 41 weeks. No contractions, no water breaking... nada. Unless my back pain is back Labor. I can't tell. I sure hope he's not sunny side up!

This weekend we celebrated Carson's dad's birthday, started decorating for Halloween (finishing up tomorrow) and I got a wedding edited! Currently working on another, even though it's not due, it's something to get done so I'm not stressing later. My feet and hands have been swollen today so I've had to take more breaks than usual. Carson made some yummy filet mignon for me and we listened to conference and played some video games tonight. It's been a productive but chill day! Officially last weekend without a baby.

Tomorrow I plan to wash/blow dry/straighten my hair so I'm not a greaseball for labor haha! Everything is prettt much packed and we'll just have it sitting in the car while we wait for the call starting at midnight. Part of me hopes I'm called in right away and part hopes maybe like.. 8am so I can sleep? But who am I kidding. I probably won't sleep tomorrow night haha. I really want the 2nd so I want to get in quick enough so I'm not laboring through the 3rd. We'll see how it goes! I never thought I'd go this over or be induced. It's really weird and I don't even feel like I'm having a baby anymore. But I am feeling a little more prepared with this extra time and a scheduled time to go into the hospital! I just hope he's not like 100lbs because we went so far over due.

Today I also got all of my gifts ready for family members. Stuff for my siblings and both grandparents! And a little something for myself. Carson's present was his wedding ring, which he calls his "Ollie ring" because the design reminds him of Jupiter and Ollie's room is space themed :)

How far along? 40 weeks and 6 days (it's technically Sunday now). 

How big is the peanut? A watermelon. Probably a giant watermelon

Sleep? I talked about it above... rough. But last night good!

Best moment this week? hmm... getting stuff done! 

Symptoms? back pain... I think I re-lost my mucous plug.. on the joys 

Food cravings? Mmm.. nothing in particular. 

Food aversions? Nope! 

What I miss? sleeping flat or on my side 

What I'm looking forward to? Getting this baby OUT! I wanna snuggle. 

39 weeks and "was that a contraction or did I just really need to poo?"

Do you love my blog post title? I wanted to post it as a fb status but... I embarrass my husband and family too much with my TMI stuff so I settled for the blog post ;)

On Monday this week I turned 39 weeks and I've been doing all right! The past few nights I haven't been able to sleep past 5-6 am so I've gotten up and done work or took a bath, and then go back to sleep from 8-10. I can't fall asleep until 1am either. It's weird because by the time 8am hits I'm EXHAUSTED and sleep super hard the next two hours. I guess body is preparing to be up at weird intervals for baby? I'm also super uncomfortable when I sleep since I'm sleeping basically sitting up with my neck kinked backwards. It's super fun.

I found a comfy position on our love sack and I might make Carson take it downstairs in our bedroom  tonight if I need to sleep on it. It's the only way I can sleep on my side and not feel like my body aches ALL OVER.

This week Carson and I have been really good about making dinners and keeping things clean(ish) and staying prepared. I was going to make these freezer meals but decided we'll just do our easy go to stuff and utilize our instant pot (WHICH IS AMAZING!)

Today I had my weekly doctor appointment. My mom and Carson took guesses on what I was dilated to and I was a little nervous for my 2nd membrane strip (which luckily they don't hurt me, just uncomfortable and I'm afraid to go into labor). I am currently *almost* a 3 and 90% effaced, yay! They said that was great progress especially for my first baby so I was feeling good. He said my water is really ready to pop and he thinks it'll break before I go into contractions AND that he thinks baby is coming this weekend. WHAT! I'm not getting my hopes up because I can really see him sitting in there forever. ALSO, I mentioned I wanted to schedule an induction on the 2nd of October (1 week overdue) and he said we can for sure induce you on that date, but you won't make it to that date. I feel like Oliver was like "challenge accepted" and is going to be stubborn ;) So I'm a little nervous over the anticipation of my water breaking... I don't know why! I'm not going to do anything to induce labor until Friday night (so my videographer can be there!). I wouldn't mind him coming on Sunday or Monday though.. I have a wedding next September on the 22nd and 23rd and I really want to celebrate his birthday ON the day, and if he's born either of those dates will force us to celebrate a different day. Which is finnnnnnne but I don't like that. haha!

Which brings me to my blog post title. I had my membranes stripped and ultimately I wasn't feeling like I was last week when I was crampy and couldn't really walk that first day comfortably. I was like, great, it did nothing again! But then I started to feel crampy after we had lunch and had some hopes. But then I realized I just needed to take a big poo. Every time I go to the bathroom I feel relieved and say to myself "ok you're good to go into labor now because you are empty and won't poo on the table during labor." But then I never go into labor and get freaked out until the next bathroom trip. Later tonight I was feeling crampy again, had maybe 2 contractions... or so I think I did? But then guess what? Another big poo. Basically I don't know what my body is doing and I'm trying to not get too excited over here and am planning for October 2nd ;)

OH! And I finally decorated for Fall on Sunday and it makes me really happy. No Halloween out just yet. I might have to put it out tomorrow though if I need to keep myself busy ;) I have a few things left to edit so most likely I'll be on my bum a lot this weekend. Also also, here's a photo of my giant belly.

How far along? Currently 39 weeks! (40 on Monday, yay!)

How big is the peanut? I don't know anymore... he's a small pumpkin this week I guess. Hmmph. All I know is I'm feeling LARGE. 

Sleep? I talked about it above.. it's weird, but I'm doing ok! Upper back pain is REALLY bad though from my sleeping position so I gotta figure something else tonight.

Best moment this week? hmm... our doctor appointment I think? It's kind of been a lame week. 

Symptoms? A little crampy... (either contraction crampy or poo crampy haha!)  

Food cravings? Food. 

Food aversions? Nope! 

Labor signs? Cramping/braxton hicks... it DOES hurt to walk tonight, just seems really stiff and tight.

Belly button in or out? Out-ish   

What I miss? sleeping flat or on my side 

What I'm looking forward to? Getting my Halloween decor up. I mean, also getting baby here but I'm also afraid soooooo I'm cool if he stays in for a bit too ;) 

37-38

Hellllooooo!

Week 37 and 38 have been alright! Last week we were pretty productive.. we got some dry wall fixed and a water softener (which both had me super giddy). I got a pedicure too so my toes aren't scary for labor ;) This week I had a shoot (and 2 more tonight) and slowly getting all of my editing done!

Week 37 with the doctor I was dilated to a 1 and 70% effaced and yesterday's appointment I was expecting to be the same. I haven't really had any contractions or cramping so I assumed no progress. BUT I am a 2.5 and 80% effaced! She offered to strip my membranes so we did that and I've been having some cramps and contractions, so Carson and I walked last night and I was hoping that would help! Welllll I woke up from a good night sleep and no contractions haha. It's been comfy all day except for one cramp and now back to normal. So we'll see! The doctor said if it did do anything for labor, we'll know within 24-48 hours so there's still some time for it to work! However, she thinks I'll still come on time. Oh well :(

Not much of an update this time, I just sit and edit at home all day and slowly work on things around the house. I haven't decorated for Fall yet and I want to so bad!

How far along? Currently 38 weeks! (39 on Monday, yay!)

How big is the peanut? A spaghetti squash! Basically between 6-9 lbs and around 20 inches. My doctor estimated me around the 7-8lb range.

Sleep? It's been a little more rough lately.. my back pain has been hard and I haven't been to the chiropractor in a bit so that's probably a mistake. 

Best moment this week? our doctor appointment! It was surprising good news. 

Symptoms? A little crampy... tired... I think I lost my mucus plug so that's cool. Um... That's it!  

Food cravings? Nothing in particular. I just love all the food. 

Food aversions? Nope! 

Labor signs? Cramping/braxton hicks... (see symptoms, basically the same thing haha) 

Belly button in or out? Out if I'm sitting or standing :)   

What I miss? um... not being winded all the time haha 

What I'm looking forward to? getting this baby OUT! ;) 

Week 35-36

Everything is starting to blur haha, I really need to update once a week and I somehow let 2 weeks get by. Granted, I had a good amount going on and now just in the final stretch of things and hopefully slowing down on things after this week! We have been checking stuff off the list... THE LIST of things I wanted done before the baby comes and we only have a few things to do left! This list had like... 25 things on it so I say we're doing pretty good haha!

Week 35 was fun! We had my brother stay with us for a few nights while my parents were up north. We got lots of treats and took him to Anasazi for his first time! mmm foooood.

That weekend was 2 baby showers for Oliver as well! Carson's work threw me one on Friday which was so incredibly nice of them. They all pitched in to get us the Owlet and a few other items like his baby tub and bumbo! (and bottles and shoes and changing pad, and they are basically so so nice to do that for a wife of one of their employees). We are very blessed that Carson works there and they have been so good to him/us.

The next day was a baby shower thrown by my Momma and it was so cute! We did a cactus theme. We had family and close friends and neighbors over and it was a party! We had the yummiest food made by my beautiful friend Sasha and her mom. I've known Sasha for 21 years and it's crazy that we'll both have boys that will be friends like us forever! Hers is 2 years older but that's ok, right? I'll just force Wade to play with little Ollie haha ;) They made a do-it-yourself style of chicken salads (like Durangos or Cafe Rio) and they were perrrrrrfect. We played a few games as well and opened presents! (Oh, and I made sugar cookies from scratch for the first time for the party and I *think* they were a success!) Also, that adorable cake was made by Cupcakes by Julie, she's so great! ALSO also, the cute cactus designs on the banner were made by Katelin Hansen :) So many people have been supportive and thoughtful for baby Oliver and it was such a perfect evening. Thanks to everyone who came and spoiled us! We only had to buy just a few items after both showers and that was immensely helpful because we had to replace 6 tires on our cars last week! *working on thank you cards still, that's on THE LIST*

Here's some pics from my talented friend Melissa:

Week 35 we had a doctor appointment and my first vaginal exam... basically not dilated (maybe 1/2 centimeter?) and 50% effaced. During week 36 Carson had to go out of town for a few days and I had the worst sleep without him! I typically only wake up 1-2 times a night (mostly around 4am every night haha) and without him here I barely slept. Lame. He also missed our doctor appointment (because I'm weekly now on those) so my mom came with me and we also got lunch and went to Target! It was so fun! I haven't dilated any more but I'm now 70% effaced. That exam wasn't as gentle as the first one and hope this week is a little less painful ha. I texted Carson and told him I found what he's getting me for my "push present" and that is a new fall outfit! Target has a new brand of clothing and it's so cute. I can't wait to wear normal clothes again and this outfit I'm super looking forward to! I also got a massage during week 36 and it was just what I needed. 

We had to change 6 tires last week and that was rough :/ I was getting excited to finally have some money for savings and.. nope! This last weekend we spent a lot of it cleaning and throwing stuff out. We got our pantry all cleaned out and organized AND Oliver's room is officially completed! Everything is washed, organized, vacuumed and decorated. Such a relief!

Baby is kind of out of control. He had left my ribs alone for most of the pregnancy because he was so low. He still is low, even more so, but has now decided to stretch out his legs straight and get my ribs! Ouch! He constantly has the hiccups, constantly is moving, and still jumps when I have gas haha! Poor guy. I'm also cramping (contractions maybe?) and having braxton hicks so that's a party. 

How far along? Currently 37 weeks! 

How big is the peanut? According to my apps, anywhere from 6-9 lbs and 18-20 ish inches!  

Total weight gain/loss? Last time I weighed I was about 10lbs up from pre pregnancy weight or 26lbs total gained. 

Maternity clothes? yeah... yeah. 

Sleep? Yes! Except when Carson isn't here. 

Best moment this week? hmm that's hard! Loved my baby showers for week 35 and week 36 was probably Target and lunch with mom.

Symptoms? new symptoms are cramping like I'm going to start my period.... still have heartburn and I've been napping more.. so tired! Also my hands HURT SO BAD. Especially when I'm sleeping. I wake up feeling like I punched a brick wall and all my bones are broken. It gets better throughout the day, probably the fluid getting out.. and then starts the cycle again at night. Ouch! 

Food cravings? Chocolate? All the food? ;) I wish I could say they were cravings but this is how I am all the time. 

Food aversions? Nope! 

Labor signs? Cramping/braxton hicks... the tiniest bit of blood tonight?  

Belly button in or out? Out if I'm sitting or standing :)   

What I miss? Not being swollen. I don't even have it as bad as some but my hands are really killing me. 

What I'm looking forward to? Our dr appintment Thursday :) AND getting our bassinet <3 

Week 34

Heyyyyy!

I'm getting uncomfortable.

I do really well in the mornings, even early afternoon! But evenings and night really are hard for me. I feel so heavy and tight and pained :( Luckily my sleep is pretty decent once I get comfortable so I have that going for me. But currently as I type this out, I'm in nothing but a robe because I cannot have anything restricting my belly! I might just have to live in my robe until delivery.

I'm also feeling like he'll never get here and I'm going to feel like this forever. And I feel like he's not even real in there anymore and I just get to be big and uncomfortable for eternity.

Good news, I have my 35 week Dr. appointment next week and it'll be the first vaginal check along with my step b test. Wouldn't that be awesome if they said I was already dilating and I was coming 2-3 weeks early? One can dream haha.

This last week was a little stressful with the amount of deadlines that I had but I made it through! I still have a lot to edit tomorrow to get fully caught up but I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I really just want to sit in my robe and watch tv or take a bath all day long but work calls my name at all hours haha. I guess it would probably be good if Ollie stays in there full term so I can get everything done that I need to before he gets here. We are currently working on cleaning out the closets and organizing all our crap. His room is JUST about done! I need to wash all of his clothes and blankets, hopefully that's tomorrow too!

I started 30 rock this week and I'm running out of shows to watch! I watch netflix while I edit and so I go through shows really fast (because I literally edit all day long haha). Any suggestions?

I threw Kassi's baby shower today and it was a great turn out! The theme was "ready to pop" and we had chocolate covered popcorn, cake pops, and soda pop. I'm so excited for her and excited Ollie will have a little friend really close in age. She is due exactly a month after me! :) She is having a boy as well.

Tonight I had my "last" shoot until baby comes. I have a few shoots lined up in September before he comes unless he decides to come early! So I count tonight's shoot as my last one just in case. It went really well! I then went to The Habit and my friend Ciera came and kept me company and watched me eat haha! She had already eaten so I was grateful she still came and talked.

This week I got a few things in the mail for Ollie, like his binky and some bottles! Carson was like, whoa this getting real, we're getting the nitty gritty stuff now! haha! I also got my similac samples in the mail, I love free stuff!

This week I had a tire blow while driving and I didn't even realize. Luckily it was the back tire and everything was safe. The next day I went to the chiropractor and thought I had a brunch date but that was supposed to be the next week. So I was without a car because mine was in the shop. I decided to just walk the 8 blocks to Big O... and I made it! But then it really really messed me up for the rest of the day and I was so sore.

How far along? Currently 34 weeks at 6 days (Monday I'm 35, yay!)

How big is the peanut? A giant. He's a giant. A butternut squash, basically 5lbs and around 18inches. We should know a little bit more at my dr. appointment. 

Total weight gain/loss? I haven't weighed myself much this week but I'm pretty sure I'm up 7lbs from pre pregnancy weight. I weigh the most I ever have right now.

Maternity clothes? Duh. 

Sleep? Decent. I am on a schedule of 12-5 and 5:30-9 ish right now. Sometimes it's 7am instead of 5, just depends on the day. 

Best moment this week? Probably today, I love baby showers!

Symptoms? Acid reflux... I have been having episodes in my sleep lately and I wake up in a choking mess (even though I'm super propped up) so that's kind of fun. Not. I am super uncomfortable at night, heavy, tight, itchy... you know. Really thirsty but can't drink too much at a time because my stomach is scrunched. It's great. 

Food cravings? Any food really. 

Food aversions? Nope! 

Labor signs? I think I have finally felt braxton hicks! Happens a few times a day. I don't love it. haha. 

Belly button in or out? Out and proud.  

What I miss? Not being in pain all the time.. not itching... laying down normally, sitting up normally... you know, pretty much all that stuff. 

What I'm looking forward to? Our dr appintment and baby showers! 

Part of 32 & 33

I should really blog at the end of the week but weekends are CRAZY and our date night was early today so I have a little bit of time to write :)

Last weekend was really good! My friend Millie and I went out for 5 Guys because both of our husband's don't really like that place. (Because they are CRAZY). It was delicious. We also got chocolate from Rocky Mountain and it was beautiful. We also played crash bandicoot on the playstation all night long... it might have been a super nerdy evening haha! ;) Carson was out of town in LA filming so a girls night was a must.

Saturday I had a bridal session and it went really well. I climbed all over snow canyon petrified sand dunes and didn't die! I have 3 photo shoots and 1 wedding left until I can take about a month break getting ready for baby. I have been feeling decently well though overall so I might take on a few here and there if they come. It really all depends on the day, but overall my energy and health have been good.

Now saying that, I got a really bad charlie horse and Sunday night and Monday I could hardly walk. It was really bad! I have to work at my computer upstairs and climbing the stairs was pretty brutal. I have never been that sore from a leg cramp before and I used to get them all the time when I was a teenager. I had to reschedule my shoot and take a half day at work (I am a remote colorist for my film lab).... but it was really good for me to relax and not stress of what I had to do. Carson took me out to eat for dinner and I worked on a chore chart at home afterwards. In our 5.5 years of marriage we are just beginning to not be 100% slobs. We are both the creative type and I don't know if that has anything to do with our clutter or laziness or.. I don't know! I am a good cleaner when I DO clean, it's just not a super often thing unless we have people coming over haha! Carson is a good blitz-er but not necessarily a deep cleaner so I came up with a chart that we each have our own chores every day and they are pretty equal to each other but also rely on our strengths. Carson is a good vacuum-er and I'm better at swiffer-ing. I will do everything in the bathrooms but he gets to do the toilet because that's gross and I shouldn't have to clean up his pee if it gets elsewhere haha! TMI. So Tuesday's are our date night (because hello, $5 movie night). Tonight we.... I mean I... decided that we were doing pedicures. I have a fear of going into labor and having my toes look all sorts of gross. I get ingrown toenails and things can get scary. So I'm trying to be better about going in because I can't pick those out myself and I don't want to go to the doctor just yet (has anyone had that surgery??). We decided to get a hot stone massage while we were there and it was heavenly. Anyway, if in my birth photos I have socks on, you'll know that my toes were scary ;)

Earlier today I got done with my work a little earlier so I went to lunch with my momma to Pancho and Lefties and it was yum! We also got a cinnoman roll from Great Harvest and went to Target. I got some maternity jeans for $10 and I am so happy because 2 just hasn't been enough. I always find myself in situations where I need to wear pants instead of a dress so 3 will be perfect. I also bought a bunch of mini necessities for my hospital bag and some stuff for a baby shower I'm throwing for a friend! All in all, a really good day!

How far along? Currently 33 weeks and a day

How big is the peanut? He is a celery stock or head of cauliflower.. which translates to about 17.2 inches and 4.2 lbs. 

Total weight gain/loss? It fluctuates but I'm about 3-5lbs up from my pre pregnancy weight. 21lbs total gained.

Maternity clothes? Bought some new ones today! 

Sleep? Good as it can be. I'm excited to lay flat or on my side. It's getting uncomfortable and I can only do propped up on my back. It's funny because the position makes Ollie go into a weird shape on my belly and when I wake up it's almost like my belly is square. I wonder if his bum just floats to the top or something? I sleep through his moving and kicking too so that's nice :)  

Best moment this week? So far was today! Shopping, eating, pedicure... why can't all days be like today?

Symptoms? Heartburn heartburn heartburn. Leg cramps now too, I had one this morning again and I'm afraid for tomorrow's ability to walk. 

Food cravings? Any food really. 

Food aversions? Nope! 

Labor signs? Nothin. Which is good I guess. 

Belly button in or out? When I lay down it's in... but..... every other time out  

What I miss? mmm, having a regular body? I can't wait to lie on my belly or roll from side to side while I sleep without feeling like a whale haha! Side note: I totally cried my eyes out the other day because I realized I had cankles (kankles?). And this isn't just in pregnancy, I do legit have borderline cankles and I instantly got so sad. I really haven't been upset about my pregnant body and I have gotten over a lot of my body issues before I was pregnant (I wasn't where I wanted to be, but I felt healthy and that was more important to me than being thin and unhealthy like I was). So it was kind of weird for me to care so much about my cankles but it's true, I have them haha! I'm ok now, it was just a realization moment for me. I was crying to Carson asking "why didn't you tell me? why has no one told me?" haha! I felt betrayed. Sheesh, hormones. 

What I'm looking forward to? Next week! I have my chiropractor appointment and a baby shower I'm throwing and my last shoot until baby Ollie gets here :) 

7.5 weeks to go! (Week 31 and part of 32)

I can't stay consistent on my blog titles and want to blog halfway through the week haha. Or maybe it's because I've been editing all day and I need a little break so I use this as an excuse ;)

Week 32 has been pretty good! We got to see Ollie yesterday at our doctor appointment (the last time before he gets here!) Our tech got a really good photo of him and it's crazy to see how much he's grown since our last ultrasound at 28 weeks! We could see part of his chest last time and this time just his head, he's getting too big to see much on the ultrasound haha! His cheeks have fattened up too, I'm so excited. She said he didn't have much hair, but that there was some... I'll take what I can get! He sucked his thumb for most of it and gave us a smile and a couple of winks. His heart was at 148. When we checked my blood pressure, it had gone up since my last appointment and I was a little worried but they said I'm finally in a normal range (I just naturally have really low blood pressure, last time at 28 weeks I was 100/58. This time I was 122/80). I haven't had a contraction yet, and no signs of preterm labor, feeling pretty good! So they haven't been having me come every 2 weeks like they normally do. I went 4 weeks and then my next one is 3 weeks, and then finally I'll go to every week after that (so from almost 36 weeks on). So I guess that's good news! I don't know where he's measuring at but I feel like he's ginormous.

Last Saturday we were going to go to Kolob and rent a canoe, but instead we went swimming at my moms and went out for fondue and steak! I won a facebook contest for free fondue at Anasazi steakhouse (one of our favorites) and so we shared a steak and ate our free fondue. That's the way to do it! We also got a lot of errands done and hung up some stuff in the nursery as well as cleaned a little bit. We're slowly checking things off our list!

Baby has been moving like crazy lately and my pelvic pain hasn't been as intense so yay for both of those things!

How far along? Currently 32 weeks and 3 days

How big is the peanut? Currently a squash! 

Total weight gain/loss? It fluctuates but I'm about 5lbs up from my pre pregnancy weight. 21lbs total gained.

Maternity clothes? This question is getting lame haha! I might have to remove it. 

Sleep? Sleeping propped up still and still pretty good quality! 

Best moment this week? Seeing Ollie :)

Symptoms? Heartburn as always... mmm... hormonal on Tuesday, I was just feeling so feisty! ;) Feeling a little more tired lately, I want to take an afternoon nap every day.

Food cravings? Sugar. Oops. 

Food aversions? Nope! 

Labor signs? Nothin 

Belly button in or out? I think it's just awkward.   

What I miss? Moving quickly! 

What I'm looking forward to? hmm... the baby being here? haha.